False hope

I might have been too optimistic, but I wont regret it. Though it seems like a decade ago I rejected the UKM 's long waited offer to Asasi Pintar and went to an unknown private university with unsure future but alas, it was last year when all that happened. Now those who choose the foundation programme is to enter their degree while I'm still stuck in this A Level programme for another few months. Honestly, I'm just plain jealous with those people. Not to mention heartbroken when I finally admits that JPA is just giving away false hope. Pffftttt, this will stick to my mind like a super-glued paper of unwanted memory that you cannot throw away.

Yet, the decision I made last year is just based on this sentence that keeps haunting me; What if I can really make it to the UK. Huh looking back at it now, I really do sound foolish enough. It's just that tiny, little crack of hope in the wall of insecurity that made me bravely chose this path to my tertiary education. Not to say I'm giving up but the chance of getting to my dream university seemed so distance that I can barely find a way to go there. Seriously, DO NOT give other people false hope, it hurts more than just telling the truth.

Now I'm just feeling grateful that I can still further my education to the tertiary level sponsored. Maybe going to other countries is not good for me after all. Allah the Almighty knows better. Whatever it is, I think I have tried. So, no regrets please. Live your life to the fullest and remember Allah always! Till then, Assalamualaikum. :)