When we practice on something, after some time we will definitely become better at it.
Like now I am better at stopping conversations even before they started no matter if it is Malay or English.
Like now I am much better at building that invisible wall so that I trust only few.(or none, no offence)
Like now when I rarely speak to people, I have difficulties saying out loud my thoughts.
And worst, I am so much better at not talking, now I'm talking with no one outside my home.
Kind of sad really but doing those things are much easier than having to interact with others.
I don't have to remember his/her name, the stories they told, the things they like or don't. It's not that they are being irritating but I'm saving myself the fuss of feeling guilty.
Plain selfish, ain't I?
Now I'm feeling nothing.
Just move on.
And moving on.
Without a glance of the present.
Because now, I'm sure I worth nothing.
