My applications; REJECTED

You know it's a humbling process when you don't even get an interview and rejected.
It might be because of my not so-high-UKCAT score when compared to others or maybe it's because of my not so touching personal statement. Whichever it might be, I don't have any regrets. I chose A Level and now, I can continue my studies locally and I can say I've tried my best but there are others who are better than me to fill in those such competitive spots.

I got lots and lots of precious new experiences that have help shaped a more mature me.
I  have realized that my parents are awesome and they'll support me no matter what.
My aunts and uncles are also super cool, giving me advice and words of motivation.

For all those bursary students who have applied and going to apply for the critical courses according to the list provided by JPA, know this. You guys are awesome because you have the courage to try. Even if you(me) fail, it's never the end of the world. Maybe going overseas is not good for you and we have to try and work harder and make those who rejected us pay for it. MUAHAHA.

Right now, I'm working on my applications to local universities. I got an offer from MAHSA for BDS but unfortunately because I kinda didn't understand what a provisional offer is and waited for the early April to ask about the offer during their open day, they told me that all the places are full and the offer is withdrawn WTH! So, today I'm waiting whether I will be called for USM interview or not. If not, well... I guess I'll go for my second choice.(Medic)

p/s: don't ask me why there are only 3 choices for dentistry there when I can apply to four. And if you want to ask anything or share something. Feel free to email me :) mierashida@yahoo.com.my

Till then, Assalamualaikum.

My List

Because I'm currently doing nothing at home and not generating any kinds of income, I shall list the things I should do before entering a degree life.

1. IELTS
I'm done with it. Alhamdulillah, thank God, for the unexpected good results I've got. :D

2.Learn to play guitar
Yeahh, I know this is something cliché but hey, no harm in gaining new skills and because I have an awesome Paklong who gave me a guitar, I should put efforts into mastering it.

3.Get my driving license
Most people I know have already gotten their license so I should have mine and have the ease to go anywhere.

4.Travelling
This one is kinda hard. It requires money which I don't have that's why the next thing came up.

5.Working
Being unemployed and not a student sucks. I should start working now. My online surveys are too slow of an income.

What else....
Maybe I'll update this list later

A level. DONE

  It was frightening, that day. 24th January 2014. I wasn't feeling anything the day before but nearing to 2.00pm, I was wrecked. My hands won't stop shaking and the time seems to past excruciatingly slow. Right on 2.00pm, I refreshed my page on the CIE Directs and voilà! MY RESULTS!!

  

  It wasn't perfect, the results, but I was so happy and glad that I didn't get B for my Maths. Alhamdulillah. Though my mood was spoiled due to some reasons, it was compensated by parents who brought me to Pizza Hut for a 'celebration'. Yeah, we go to these kinds of restaurants mostly for special occasions.

  Now that my results was out, I can concentrate on my upcoming IELTS exam. I need to get 7 and I have to aim for the band 8 (in case you didn't know, 9 is the highest). No harm in aiming higher right? I think I can manage the listening and reading well, I'm just a bit(a big fat lie!!) nervous for the speaking and writing mostly, the former especially. As my 2-weeks-IELTS-prep-class told me, most Asians are better at receptive language than the productive ones. Yep I'm definitely an Asian. 

  Putting aside IELTS for a while and I'll be talking about my future plans(heh). Now that Manchester has rejected me(WITHOUT AN INTERVIEW) I am in dire need of plan B or C or D. Though this is nothing new(change of plan) in my life, it's still disappointing. A new level of respect for those who did their MBBS or BDS at the UK.

  Now over with my whining session, I'll just continue my IELTS practices. What else.

Till then, Assalamualaikum.

  

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When we practice on something, after some time we will definitely become better at it.

Like now I am better at stopping conversations even before they started no matter if it is Malay or English.
Like now I am much better at building that invisible wall so that I trust only few.(or none, no offence)
Like now when I rarely speak to people, I have difficulties saying out loud my thoughts.
And worst, I am so much better at not talking, now I'm talking with no one outside my home.

Kind of sad really but doing those things are much easier than having to interact with others.
I don't have to remember his/her name, the stories they told, the things they like or don't. It's not that they are being irritating but I'm saving myself the fuss of feeling guilty.
Plain selfish, ain't I?

Now I'm feeling nothing.
Just move on.
And moving on.
Without a glance of the present.
Because now, I'm sure I worth nothing.

Nervous

Have you ever feel like sleeping is wasting your time and you need to wake up and continue to study and study and study. Luckily, although I have that kind of feelings all the time, I have never had the strength to do it. Huh. Now that I've done with paper 33 CIE Mathematics, all the motivations that I had before seems to vanished. A week to go for the next paper. AHHH. Okay, I better start to study now.

UKCAT

oh no. Slacked big time!

AS results

Well well well, 13th of August, right on 1.00pm I checked my result for the AS examination. Alhamdulillah, thank God I got 4As for my AS. Though I am a bit disaapointed with my percentile, I am still grateful to get such result.

Now, although it's just a few months ago I've finished my AS A2 is coming up real soon. Like seriously soon enough that I am having goosebumps for just bringng this topic up. Ughhh. And yeah, A2 is like triple hard than AS. Oh my, what am I doing here rambling about things, I should go start my exercises now!

Till then, Assalamualaikum.