A level. DONE

  It was frightening, that day. 24th January 2014. I wasn't feeling anything the day before but nearing to 2.00pm, I was wrecked. My hands won't stop shaking and the time seems to past excruciatingly slow. Right on 2.00pm, I refreshed my page on the CIE Directs and voilà! MY RESULTS!!

  

  It wasn't perfect, the results, but I was so happy and glad that I didn't get B for my Maths. Alhamdulillah. Though my mood was spoiled due to some reasons, it was compensated by parents who brought me to Pizza Hut for a 'celebration'. Yeah, we go to these kinds of restaurants mostly for special occasions.

  Now that my results was out, I can concentrate on my upcoming IELTS exam. I need to get 7 and I have to aim for the band 8 (in case you didn't know, 9 is the highest). No harm in aiming higher right? I think I can manage the listening and reading well, I'm just a bit(a big fat lie!!) nervous for the speaking and writing mostly, the former especially. As my 2-weeks-IELTS-prep-class told me, most Asians are better at receptive language than the productive ones. Yep I'm definitely an Asian. 

  Putting aside IELTS for a while and I'll be talking about my future plans(heh). Now that Manchester has rejected me(WITHOUT AN INTERVIEW) I am in dire need of plan B or C or D. Though this is nothing new(change of plan) in my life, it's still disappointing. A new level of respect for those who did their MBBS or BDS at the UK.

  Now over with my whining session, I'll just continue my IELTS practices. What else.

Till then, Assalamualaikum.

  

Nervous

Have you ever feel like sleeping is wasting your time and you need to wake up and continue to study and study and study. Luckily, although I have that kind of feelings all the time, I have never had the strength to do it. Huh. Now that I've done with paper 33 CIE Mathematics, all the motivations that I had before seems to vanished. A week to go for the next paper. AHHH. Okay, I better start to study now.

KPM Bursary holder I am.

'For this year(2012), all SPM leavers that get 9A+ and above will automatically get Bursary by the government through KPM'

That's an awfully good news. But the downside of it is that there are no more JPA scholarship for SPM leavers, EXCEPT for engineering(I want to be a dentist, if you're curious).

Well, I am NOT saying that studying in public university is anything worse but the mentality of studying overseas for degree has been carved, painted, screwed, pasted in my childish mind from (I think) kindergarten so when there is an opportunity laying in front of me, NO way I'm going to lose it. Although that means I have to give up my offered place in AsasiPintar, UKM (my dream foundation programme for public university).

So, here I am in INTI International University taking 18 months CIE A level programme with subject combination of Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths. I purposely take the 18 months programme because, hey we will never know what will happen in the future so the faster the better.

Someone wise(not really) told me before A level is really just studying past years papers. Well, I kinda half agree with that. Just finished my AS (except for paper 1) and yes, past years do help (A LOT) but as my lecturers always said those CIE people are creative in preparing question(hell yes!) you still need to be aware of the techniques and some other secret ingredients to answer the questions.

About the bursary programme, we the lab-rat batch aka the 'pioneer batch' there are still lots of things that are not clear especially about the degree programme's scholarship by JPA and some other small(medium if i can say) things such as the IELTS fees, university application fees, and the list of universities provided by JPA(ridiculous list, I say).

Nonetheless, I am truly grateful for the Bursary as going to private universities only comes in my dreams but it is now my reality and I will have to struggle(insyaa Allah), for the upcoming degree programme, the same as my other colleagues  in the pre-university programme.

Till then, Assalamualaikum. :)